September 10, 2009 06:50:29 GMT
The songstress says she has been unable to watch television or read the newspaper since Michael's sudden passing on June 25.
Still mourning the death of her brother Michael Jackson, Janet Jackson shares with the October issue of Harper's Bazaar how she's been feeling since he passed away. "It's really hard to believe he's passed," says the songstress. "We had so much fun that day," she recalls the last time she and Michael met at a family gathering in May. "We kept calling each other after and saying how great it was," she states, adding that they ate Thai food and tormented each other during that day.
Then, she goes on mentioning the things that she remembers most about Michael. "He loved to laugh...Sometimes his humor would be corny, sometimes dry. He loved the Three Stooges, he loved slapstick, he loved Eddie Murphy in his silly comedies. He loved to have fun. He loved to play," she reveals.
And following Michael's passing, Janet almost never reads the newspaper or watches TV. "It will drive you crazy," she confesses. "People can have rhinoceros skin, but there's a point when something's going to hurt you. Not everyone is stone, stone. I haven't watched the news in weeks. I had to ask my chef, 'How's Obama doing?' I haven't read a newspaper. On top of that, [we've lost] a family member."
Asked on how she's coping with the loss, Janet says she recently spent three days on a beach which she found really helpful to mend her broken heart. "It was the first time I had to myself since Michael passed, the first time I could get away since all of that," she admits. Besides, she is also throwing herself into work, claiming "I've been doing okay. Work helps focus all of that energy on something that is of value to you."
On how she would like people to remember her late superstar brother, Janet tells Harper's Bazaar, "It's so beyond. I can't even begin. It's on so many different levels. Bringing light and love and happiness. He's just got so much love, and so much heart, and so much power through his music. Children and his love for children. People have told me, 'I am an American citizen because of your brother.' He wrote them a letter or something. He was just that giving, loving person. And the greatest entertainer there ever was. And is. I hope people get a glimpse of him now, some sort of picture."