AceShowbiz - Taylor Hill, the renowned 28-year-old model, recently revealed on the "On Purpose With Jay Shetty" podcast the roller-coaster of emotions she endured after suffering a miscarriage three years ago. Hill had never spoken publicly about her miscarriage before, sharing that only her family and close friends were aware of her experience.

Hill described the unusual circumstance of her pregnancy, explaining that she conceived while on an IUD. "I wasn't actively trying to get pregnant. I was engaged to my husband, Daniel Fryer. We were not planning on starting a family for a while," Hill confessed. Learning about the pregnancy was both shocking and saddening for Taylor, especially because Daniel was stuck in London due to COVID-19 travel restrictions, adding to her stress.

Because she conceived while on an IUD, Hill was informed that the pregnancy had a 50/50 chance of continuing. Yet, at six weeks, the ultrasound and hearing the heartbeat began to shift her perspective toward accepting the potential of becoming a mother at 25. She recounted feeling "somewhat ready" as she approached the nine-week mark, only to experience the heartbreak of a miscarriage soon afterward.

"I start seeing what looks like fresh blood," Hill recalled, noting that she was alone at home with only her dog since Daniel was still in London. "I call my husband and I'm just devastated. We're both crying," she shared. The miscarriage severely affected her mental health, leading her to confront feelings of failure and betrayal by her own body.

Throughout her journey, Hill struggled with the conflicting emotions of initially not wanting a baby, becoming prepared for motherhood, and then mourning the loss. She tried to accept that the "timing wasn't right" and even believed "everything happens for a reason," yet she was "absolutely devastated" not to be a mother. "The day it happened, I just sobbed to my best friend. She held me, and I held her," Hill recounted.

With time, Hill gained perspective and came to terms with the loss, understanding it was "not my fault" and that her "body didn't fail me," acknowledging the likely unhealthy pregnancy due to the IUD.

"Three years later, I have so much more perspective. I've given myself so much time to heal. It no longer feels like an open, gaping wound. It feels like a scar. It's definitely still with me. There's a mark there," she expressed. Despite it being a "tender spot," Hill sees a light at the end of the tunnel and feels "confident and comfortable enough to talk about it."