March 07, 2012 06:53:01 GMT
Having gone candid about her recovery on 'Stay Strong' special, the 'Skyscraper' singer sits down with MTV's SuChin Pak and fans for a question-and-answer session during the after-show.
Demi Lovato has just revealed what being a role model means to her after going through rehab for eating disorders and self-harm issues. Sitting down with MTV's SuChin Pak and a group of fans for the after-show of her "Stay Strong" special, the Disney star was quick to say, "To me, it isn't about being perfect. I obviously have my flaws."
"When I first got into this business and thrown into the spotlight, it was difficult because I was a normal 14-, 15-year-old girl who had a mouth like a sailor," the 19-year-old continued as recalling. "I was so frustrated all the time feeling guilty and shameful. I was partying and definitely not a role model."
The songstress, who starred opposite the Jonas Brothers in two "Camp Rock" movies, went on to say, "But after all of this, it's about overcoming issues and being able to rise above things." She added, "It's about going through hell and coming out as strong as you can."
During the Q&A session, Lovato also talked about her role models in life. "I have singers I look up to [including] Kelly Clarkson, she is my ultimate idol," she first admitted. "Then there is always people who inspire me daily. My sisters and my mom, those people help me get through every single day."
As for the documentary itself, the "Skyscraper" singer commented, "Doing the documentary was so interesting." She explained, "I've never had cameras following me around. It was a challenge knowing it would be in front of the world. I felt really vulnerable and still do tonight in knowing that's what's in the world. I wouldn't change it, knowing some girl could hear it and be affected positively."
"Demi Lovato: Stay Strong" was premiered on MTV Tuesday, March 6 night. In the hour-long documentary, Lovato confessed, "I can not tell you that I have not thrown up since treatment. I can not tell you that I have not cut myself since treatment. I'm not perfect. This is a daily battle that I will face the rest of my life."
The young star further explained, "Everyone kind of just made me a role model and I hated that. I was partying, I was self-medicating. I was like, why would you want your kids to be like me? I felt like I was living a lie. I was dealing with all this pain emotionally and I felt guilt and shame. I decided to take it out on myself. I harmed myself. It was my way of taking my own shame and my own guilt out on myself."