AceShowbiz - %cLamar Odom% tells all in a new interview about his wild life during his marriage to %cKhloe Kardashian%. The basketball player admits to abusing drugs and cheating on his then-wife that led to the demise of their marriage and the end of his NBA career.
"I was hiding it for a while," he tells Us Weekly about his drugs addiction, "but then I got frustrated and was like, f**k it. Around two years before we split up [in 2011], I was in the man cave she had made for me and she caught me. She was disappointed. So was I."
"The sad thing about it is, I don't know if I was disappointed because I was actually doing the drug or because she caught me. She knew I was doing cocaine the whole time after that. It was my drug of choice. I'm not going to say she accepted it because that would be the wrong word. Tolerated would be a better word."
Lamar also explains how fame played a part in his infidelity. "When I became Khloe Kardashian's man and on TV, it made me look more enticing. People who didn't even know basketball would approach me because they knew Lammy. B***hes and THOTs came out of the woodwork. If there is one thing I regret when I was married, it was having multiple affairs with different women. That wasn't the stand-up thing to do. I wish I could have kept my d**k in my pants."
After Khloe filed for divorce, things quickly went downhill. "That's where me and my friend Jamie [Sangouthai], God bless the dead, turned the drug use up to another level," he reveals. "The 'don't give a f**k' place. I was in a very dark place and very confrontational. I wasn't trying to repair my marriage; I was just trying to get high. My life was all about drugs at that point. It probably helped the end of my career come along a little faster because drugs killed my drive to want to train and be in shape. It killed that and my sex drive. The only time you can f**k is when you take coke."
He recounts his visit to the brothel before he went into coma, "I was home by myself. Bored. I wanted to get out and have a good time. Looking back, I might have had a drink to get the mood started, but was I drunk or on drugs? Not at all. I remember lying in bed. Two women were in bed and then I fell asleep. That's all. When I woke up four days later, I was trying to pull the tubes out of my mouth."
When he woke up and saw Khloe's face, "it was definitely a moment of relief," he says, "I didn't even know what had just happened. I mean, I'm a big strong dude who has made it to the highest level of doing what he loves. And now I can't walk or talk. She was the first thing I saw. She said, 'Hi, Mookah.' 'Mookah' is a name my mother used to call me. She said it to let me know I wasn't dead. She played a major role in me getting my memory back. She would bring pictures of my mother and my grandmother. I kept thinking, Am I paralyzed forever? Am I mute forever? It was scary s**t. Faith got me through."
They, however, never rekindled their romance after his hospitalization. "Honestly, at that time I was just blessed to be around her. I wasn't making any more out of it than that. We haven't been intimate in years," he says.