The 'I Am Cait' star says in her blog post, 'I hope that people don't listen to the pitch of my voice, but listen to what I have to say.'
- July 21, 2015
AceShowbiz -
Caitlyn Jenner opened up about her first official public appearance at the 2015 ESPY Awards in her blog on Monday, July 20. Caitlyn wrote about overcoming her fear of speaking in front of public and stepping onstage in a Versace gown to accept the Arthur Ashe Courage Award. Her ESPY look has made into Vogue's list of 10 best dressed women of the week.
"What a week. Let me just start by saying, I'm so happy it's over! What a relief," she wrote. "Over the last month, I was so worried about what to wear. Donatella Versace reached out to me and said, 'I want to do the dress.' I said, 'I am SO in.' We started with designs; they made the dress in Italy. Her head dressmaker came over and we did two fittings to make sure we got it just absolutely perfect. It was like every fantasy of my life come true."
"Getting glamorous for the ESPYs was a big process to go through, but it was amazing and so much fun," she added, "I really wanted to feel real comfortable up there (although there was a corset under that dress, so I don't know how comfortable I was!). I wanted to feel good. I wanted to feel pretty. I wanted to be myself."
Caitlyn said her "biggest fear" was speaking in front of public. "As a dyslexic kid, my biggest fear in life was to go in front of the class and read because I just wasn't very good at it - and that stays with you through your whole life. That's why all of my speaking engagements through the years have been always off the cuff. I'm better off getting up there knowing what I'm going to say and doing it. But at the ESPYs, I really had to stick to the prompter because I only had a certain number of minutes to make it right, to get my points across. I practiced, and practiced, and practiced, and practiced to make sure I'd nail it."
She admitted it was "a little difficult" to watch her speech when she rewatched it later, worrying about how her voice would be perceived. "While I felt like I looked great and that the gown looked fabulous, I still have a voice issue. It's not quite right compared to my feminine appearance. That bothers me a little bit," the "I Am Cait" star shared, "However, I hope that people don't listen to the pitch of my voice, but listen to what I have to say. That's important to me."
Caitlyn shared on Instagram a photo of her ESPY Award along with some glasses of celebratory champagne. "Still reliving the ESPYs. It was an amazing night!" she captioned it.
