AceShowbiz - Beyonce Knowles has revealed she found strength in the pain of suffering of her heartbreaking miscarriage.
After the 2012 birth of Blue Ivy, the "Run The World (Girls)" hitmaker's rapper husband Jay-Z revealed the couple had previously lost a child during pregnancy and, in a new interview with Elle U.K. magazine for its January 2020 issue, the star confessed the "painful" experience made her learn "to mother myself before I could be a mother to someone else."
"I began to search for deeper meaning when life began to teach me lessons I didn't know I needed. Success looks different to me now," she explained during an Ask Me Anything with fans via social media, when asked how she measures success now. "Then I had Blue, and the quest for my purpose became so much deeper. I died and was reborn in my relationship, and the quest for self became even stronger."
The "Formation" star, who is nominated for the Best Original Song in a Motion Picture prize at the 2020 Golden Globes for her track Spirit from "The Lion King (2019)", added, "It's difficult for me to go backwards. Being number one was no longer my priority. My true win is creating art and a legacy that will live far beyond me. That's fulfilling."
Beyonce and Jay also welcomed twins Rumi and Sir in 2017 and, when asked how she feels about people commenting on her appearance, the diva admitted, "children and maturity have taught me to value myself beyond my physical appearance and really understand that I am more than enough no matter what stage I'm at in life."
"Giving zero f**ks is the most liberating place to be. Also knowing true beauty is something you cannot see," she mused, adding, "I wish more people focused on discovering the beauty within themselves rather than critiquing other folks' grills."
The January issue of Elle U.K. is on sale from 12 December 2019.