AceShowbiz - Alec Baldwin emotionally recounted the aftermath of the tragic 2021 shooting on the set of "Rust" in the premiere episode of the new TLC reality series, "The Baldwins].

The cinematographer Halyna Hutchins was fatally shot by a prop gun held by Alec, leading to a series of events that have deeply affected his and his family's lives. The episode revealed Baldwin's journey through grief, legal battles, and mental health struggles.

His wife Hilaria Baldwin disclosed that Alec had been diagnosed with PTSD. "Everyone who is close to Alec has seen his mental health decline," she said during the premiere episode.

"He says in his darkest moments, 'If an accident had to have happened this day, why am I still here? Why couldn't it have been me?' " she added.

Alec echoed these sentiments, "There were times I'd lay in bed. "I'd go, 'Wow, my kids. I can't get up.' That's not like me. I'm not like that at all, not in any way am I like that. Never."

The emotional fallout from the incident not only affected Alec but also left its mark on Hilaria and their seven children. "I always feel more in pain about you than me," Alec said to his wife. "Honestly, from the bottom of my soul, I don't know where I'd be if I didn't have you and these kids going through this. I never would have made it with this."

The Baldwin children, ranging in age from two to eleven, have provided a sense of purpose and support for the couple amid the emotional turmoil. "I look at the kids, and I see how hard we're trying to create happy for them, even if we're masking stuff for ourselves," Hilaria shared.

They not only acknowledged the unique challenges they face but also recognized a broader connection with other families going through hard times. "Every family goes through hard times," Hilaria stated, pointing out the importance of community support and mutual understanding.

Episodes of "The Baldwins" air weekly on TLC and are available for streaming on Max, offering a raw and intimate look into their lives as they strive to move forward.