Cheryl Burke has gotten candid about her sobriety journey. Having been sober for nearly three years, the "Dancing with the Stars" pro-dancer admitted that she has been thinking about "drinking again."
"I'm here to confess that lately staying sober has been a little bit of a challenge for me. And recently I've been thinking a lot, I have to admit, about drinking again," she said in a YouTube video posted on Tuesday, June 29. "So, I decided to hold myself accountable by confessing my anxious feelings."
The "Dance Moms" alum also divulged that there have been some "triggers" that made her almost relapse. It included "something bothering [her] that [she doesn't] necessarily want to feel or face."
Cheryl said it was more challenging for her to stay sober while she took a trip to Hawaii with her husband Matthew Lawrence. "Us being in Hawaii, just that carefree feeling of being under the sun, my husband may have had a glass of champagne, my senses have come back even stronger ever since I decided to stop drinking. So, the smell of it I missed," she confessed.
Cheryl went on to note that "there's so much chaos going on in [her] life right now." She added, "In the past, everyone always used to say, 'How do you do it all?' But I did it all because I was numbing through it all. Now, for the first time, through all the chaos, I'm actually having to feel it and be uncomfortable while I'm feeling it."
Despite the challenges, she said her "Pretty Messed Up" podcast with AJ McLean and Rene Elizondo Jr. is like "a safe zone" for her to be "vulnerable." She claimed that by hearing her guests and her co-hosts' stories, she can "normalize everything."
In the Sunday, June 27 episode of the podcast, Cheryl told her co-hosts that she has "a lot of personal stuff going on right now at the moment." She further spilled, "I feel like I'm walking on a really tight rope at the moment... Therapy is not working right now."