AceShowbiz - Demi Moore details how her marriage to Ashton Kutcher sent her into a "gradual downward spiral" as she started drinking again after 20 years of being sober. In her new memoir "Inside Out", the actress claims she started drinking again during their marriage to be the "fun, normal girl" she thought her third husband wanted her to be.
But her drinking behavior got out of control and Demi says Ashton sent mixed signals about this that were "confusing." The "Ghost" star remembers the "Two and a Half Men" alum got furious when she was "passing out and slipping under the water" while partying with friends, and Ashton had to carry her back to bed.
"Ashton had encouraged me to go in this direction. When I went too far, though, he let me know how he felt by showing a picture he'd taken of me resting my head on the toilet the night before," she writes. "It seemed like a good-natured joke at the time. But it was really just shaming."
The mother of 3 admits she went "into contortions to try to fit the mold of the woman [Ashton] wanted his wife to be." For that reason, she agreed to his idea to have threesomes. "I put him first," so she claims. "So when he expressed his fantasy of bringing a third person into our bed, I didn't say no. I wanted to show him how great and fun I could be."
In a previously revealed part of the book, Demi blames the threesomes as the cause of Ashton's infidelity. "Because we had brought in a third party into our relationship, Ashton said, that blurred the lines and, to some extent, justified what he's done," she writes about the 41-year-old actor's alleged cheating.
Elsewhere in the book, Demi reveals her own infidelity during her relationship with first husband Freddy Moore. "The night before we got married, instead of working on my vows, I was calling a guy I'd met on a movie set," she writes. "I snuck out of my own bachelorette party and went to his apartment."
The "Charlie's Angels" star confesses to having had doubts about her first marriage, and that she got married at the time to "distract" herself from grieving her father's death. "Why did I do that? Why didn't I go and see the man I was committing to spend the rest of my life with to express my doubts," she explains. "Because I couldn't face the fact that I was getting married to distract myself from grieving the death of my father. Because I felt there was no room to question what I'd already put in motion. I couldn't get out of the marriage, but I could sabotage it."
Ashton has not responded to Demi's allegations in the book, but he recently posted cryptic tweets. "I was about to push the button on a really snarky tweet," he wrote, adding that his wife Mila Kunis and their children made him rethink his decision. He said, "Then I saw my son, daughter, and wife and I deleted it."
The "No Strings Attached" star added in a separate tweet, "Life is good -Larry Kutcher."
Meanwhile, Mila is reportedly pissed that Demi is airing all of Ashton's dirty laundry. "Mila hates that Demi is airing all her dirty laundry in her book because it involves so much stuff that she doesn't want her kids ever to ever read or be made fun of for," a source tells HollywoodLife.
"Mila is not happy and is really waiting for this all to die down because she would rather be dealing with anything else. She is not having a good time with it," the source adds. Another insider says, "Mila never imagined Demi would be coming out with all this drama after so many years. Mila knows that Ashton is not the same person he was back when he and Demi were together."