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Having seven years of experience of living in "oppressive," "ambitious," and "backstabbing" atmosphere of Playboy Mansion, Holly Madison eventually has the courage to reveal her dark moments. She will let people know the real life in the "Rabbit Hole" through her upcoming tell-all book "Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny" which will be released in June.

In the book, Madison details day and night misery and depression she dealt with during her life as a Playboy bunny including her suicidal thought. "Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn't a dream at all-and quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide," the book's promotional material says.

This piece of tale of life is undoubtedly worth reading as the publisher, Harper Collins, promises to provide all the shocking reality of Hugh Hefner's and his girls' lives. All the aspects ranging from the drugs, the sex, the abuse, the glamorous parties, and Madison's real behind-the-scenes life with other bunnies and Mr. Playboy himself will be openly shared in the book.

Madison, 35, who is now wife to Pasquale Rotella and mother to two-year-old Rainbow, expects the book will wipe out all bad opinions and the glam life associated to her and finally bring about different perspective about her. "I think my stories will surprise people and I'm looking forward to lifting the veil of mystique and clearing up the misconceptions so often associated with my life," says Madison.