The former 'Girls Next Door' star shares that she 'didn't know what was going on in my head and my body or why I was crying' prior to her first hospitalization due to panic attack.
- Jan 17, 2024
AceShowbiz - Kendra Wilkinson has broken her silence on her battle with mental health. Months after her first hospitalization due to a panic attack, the former star of "The Girls Next Door" detailed losing hope during her challenging time.
In a new interview published on Tuesday, January 16, the 38-year-old TV star recalled what happened when she rushed to an emergency room to seek help for medical treatment in September. While sitting in the living room of her friend's Newport Beach home, she spoke to PEOPLE, "I was in a state of panic."
Kendra went on to explain, "I didn't know what was going on in my head and my body or why I was crying. I had hit rock bottom." While getting emotional, she said, "I was dying of depression. I was hitting the end of my life, and I went into psychosis. I felt like I wasn’t strong enough to live anymore."
"It was the lowest place I've ever been in my life," the former Playboy model, who admitted that she "had been struggling to find a fresh start in real estate," continued. "I felt like I had no future. I couldn't see in front of my depression. I was giving up and I couldn't find the light. I had no hope."
"It was so scary for me to go through it. I wasn't focusing on myself or my mental health. Here I was a single mom and I've been alone for years now. But it's also easy to feel like the world is caving in on you. I was trying to fight it on my own. I was trying to cure it on my own and you can't do that," she added.
Kendra further recounted, "I was isolating, hiding, blaming myself, blaming the world. I was spiraling out of control and I felt like I wasn't strong enough to survive. There was a moment where I looked at my ex-husband and I said, 'Take me to the hospital.' "
During the chat, Kendra, who became famous at the age of 28 for her role on "The Girls Next Door", talked about her traumas from her past experiences. "It's not easy to look back at my 20s. I've had to face my demons," she stated. While referring to her former co-star Hugh Hefner's controversial Playboy world, she declared, "Playboy really messed my whole life up."
Kendra rushed to an emergency room on September 6, 2023. One week later, she returned to the hospital while being accompanied by her former husband Hank Baskett. She was placed on the antipsychotic medication Abilify. Weeks following the second visit, she began outpatient therapy three times a week at UCLA. In November, she happily shared updates with her fans that she has "finished treatment for my depression and anxiety."
