The 'Lucky' singer describes her 13-year conservatorship as 'soul-crushing' and explains how she felt like she was 'never good enough' due to constant disparaging remarks by her dad.
- Oct 18, 2023
AceShowbiz - Britney Spears said her father told her she "looked fat" and turned her into a "robot." The 41-year-old singer has revealed how her dad Jamie - who had joint responsibility for her affairs for most of the time she was under a conservatorship, which finally ended in November 2021 after 13 years - took over every aspect of her life and left her feeling like she was "never good enough."
"Under the conservatorship, I was made to understand that those days were now over. I had to grow my hair out and get back into shape. I had to go to bed early and take whatever medication they told me to take," she wrote in an extract from her memoir "The Woman In Me", obtained by People magazine.
"If I thought getting criticised about my body in the press was bad, it hurt even more from my own father. He repeatedly told me I looked fat and that I was going to have to do something about it. Feeling like you're never good enough is a soul-crushing state of being for a child. He'd drummed that message into me as a girl, and even after I'd accomplished so much, he was continuing to do that to me."
Britney recalled how she became "infantilised" as a result of having no control over her life and insisted she "didn't deserve" being under the conservatorship for so long. She added, "I became a robot. But not just a robot - a sort of child-robot. I had been so infantilised that I was losing pieces of what made me feel like myself."
"I think back now on my father and his associates having control over my body and my money for that long and it makes me feel sick. Think of how many male artists gambled all their money away; how many had substance abuse or mental health issues. No one tried to take away their control over their bodies and money. I didn't deserve what my family did to me."
