Khloe opens up that she found it difficult to call it quits with her husband because she didn't believe in divorce.
- May 18, 2016
AceShowbiz - Khloe Kardashian talks about her divorce from Lamar Odom in an essay she wrote for Lena Dunham's newsletter. "It was a challenge for me when I decided to get divorced," the reality TV star opens up in her blog post on Lenny.
"At my core, I don't believe in divorce," she explains her struggle, "but I came to a point in my marriage where I had to make the choice to take care of my own mental and emotional well-being in order to protect myself and my happiness."
"I am at peace with that decision and do feel like I honored my vows to the very end," she adds. "I feel that I kept the serious vows I made in front of God with every inch of my heart, which is why I am still honoring them today even though my relationship with my ex-husband is in a different place."
"I believe in caring for my partner - past or present - 'in sickness and in health,' and feel at peace with my relationship with God even after the fact. I'm thankful that I can rely on my God, who, along with my family, has led me through some of the most difficult times of my life."
Calling herself "a very spiritual person," Khloe believes in "a higher power is what guides me to make the right decisions." She says, "While I believe in heaven and hell and angels and spirits, I don't judge people for their beliefs. And I don't understand how others can sit around casting judgments on people because they have different religions and a certain point of view."
"I don't believe you need to be a certain religion to embrace someone else's religion. It's a matter of respecting someone," the "Kocktails with Khloe" host continues. "I'm a Christian but I don't think a church necessarily makes you religious."
"I love theology and I enjoy learning about other people's religions," she adds before referring to French Montana. "One of my exes was Muslim and observed Ramadan, which is a month of fasting. You fast from sunrise to sunset to commemorate the first time the Quran was revealed to Muhammad, and I practiced it with him to be supportive."
Khloe recalls another difficult time in her life. It was when she lost her father, Robert Kardashian. "After he passed, I was bitter and angry - I was VERY angry at God. I didn't understand why someone who was so great, my dad - why he would be taken away."
"My relationship with spirituality has changed over the years, but I've never stopped believing," she says. "I enjoy going to church, I just haven't found a church that I'm passionate about, where I fit in."
So Khloe turns to daily devotional. "The devotions are just one page each, with a quote from the Bible, a breakdown of its meaning, and a daily prayer ... I read these affirmations to my glam squad every day," she explains. "They think I'm nuts, but I love it, and that works for me."
