July 07, 2011 02:17:52 GMT
In an open letter, the 'Shortie Like Mine' rapper explains he kept the truth about his daughter because he was nervous on how his fans would look at him, and confesses to thinking about suicide.
Bow Wow finally admits to being a father to a baby girl. Just weeks after blasting leaked photos of his alleged newborn daughter and reports of him privately accepting paternity test back, the "Shortie Like Mine" hitmaker took to his Bow Wow Today website and posted an open letter to his fans in which he talked about fatherhood and thought of suicide.
"Let me start off by saying i love my fans," the MC began his letter. "With out yall i wudda been left the game. For the past 3 years i been batteling life. Even thought about taking my own. I felt like as a kid i did everything and saw everything too fast which spoiled my adult years. I felt as if i had no purpose to live(Thinking selfishly) until god gave me the illest gift of my life. No lambo, no blk card nuffn ammounts to my lil girl."
"I waited so long to tell yall the truth because i was nervous on how yall would look at me," the 24-year-old explained his reasons. "Yall know everyone makes a big deal out of everything i do. I wanted to be 1st n let yall know the real. My lil girl is getting BIG fast. i love every minute of it. She inspires me to go harder.Even made me treat my mother better, its like it made me into a man over night."
"Never been a fan of posting pix of my daughter. Reason is because i want my boo boo to have everything i didnt. Want her to be able to cheerlead with her lil friends with out some asshole sticking his camera all in my lil girl face. I know how fame is. I missed out on so much that i now know how important it is to cherish and have those things in your life. Yes! I change diapers. Aint as bad as i thought hahaha."
In the lengthy letter, Bow Wow also shared, "I want her to live with me so bad. Jus us 2. Thats my dream man but fellas yall know how it go. Baby gotta stay with they momma and all dat bull. I hate that! So i have to fly 5 hrs away to see her. I find myself going into my i phone book jus lookn at pix of her. Sometimes i tear up cuz i just cant believe it brotha be emotional. All in all im good. This is my 1st. I know all my fans gone support me and ride for her like yall been doin my whole career."
"Im happy and if your a fan then ud be happy too cuz yall gone be with me every step of the way," he wrote near the end of the letter. "The bs that comes with having a baby momma is expected. So i neva trip. Jus gotta suck it up keep chin high and try not let her get the best of my feelings by playin them stupid games. Ima stay positive and keep maintaining long as i got yall i cant lose. I love yall. And shai shai daddy love u too! Wizzle!!!!"
Back in mid-June, MediaTakeOut came out with a report that paternity test has proven that Bow Wow is the father of video vixen Joie Chavis' baby girl. Along with the story, the gossip site also included a photo of the rapper's alleged baby. Bow Wow himself strongly denied the claim, writing on Twitter, "Picture on mediatakeout aint my daughter... Some bloggers f**king suck at they job. Get accurate info for once. Stop feeding people bulls**t."