February 10, 2010 04:24:52 GMT
He compares Ali's decision to leave him to Mike Tyson punching him in the face and he defends his own decision to let her go at the end.
Jake Pavelka has come forward to address the heartbreaking situation when Ali decided to leave "The Bachelor" to pursue her career. The commercial pilot said that he was so hurt when Ali made the decision that it felt like Mike Tyson gave him a jab on the jaw.
In his blog posted by People, Jake gave a rundown of how the hometown visits made him feel good and how going back to L.A. was upsetting. "After visiting all the families, I felt really good about where I was in this journey. Then I got back to L.A. and the bottom dropped out. My heart crumbled when she told me her boss demanded her back at work. I didn't actually think she would leave me. We talked about it for three hours that night while the poor women at the rose ceremony just waited."
Jake then gave an insight about the situation, explaining "She actually didn't have to be back at work for four or five more days but we were leaving the country the next morning, so she had to make a decision I felt like she wanted me to make the choice for her, but I couldn't. How could I live with myself if I told her, 'No! You are not leaving me now!' and then realize a week or two later that she was not 'the one.' I couldn't make the decision for her."
He added, "When she told me she was leaving, my heart stopped. I wish I could've had Mike Tyson punch me square in the jaw, because it would have felt so much better than what I feeling as I watched AliCat drive away that night."
Jake praised Ali during his visit to her hometown of Williamstown, Mass. "It was hard to pull myself away from Ali that night; we shared some of the most passionate kissing I had experienced so far!" he said, adding that her family made him comfortable.
Next week on "The Bachelor", Jake receives a call from Ali. "Next week we are in Saint Lucia! EVERYTHING changes. This is where the real emotions start to run wild. Relationships are solidified and become unstoppable," Jake teased.