AceShowbiz - Former Spice Girls star Melanie Brown has opened up about the pain of coming face to face with her former lover Eddie Murphy at the "Shrek Forever After" premiere earlier this year. In an upcoming episode of her new reality TV show "It's a Scary World", the "Wannabe" singer reveals her heart sank when she realized she had to pose for promotional shots with her ex-boyfriend - the father of her daughter Angel Iris - because she still had not forgiven him for questioning the paternity of her child.

In a session with a counselor, taped for the new series, an emotional Mel B says, "We got asked to go to the Shrek premiere and I didn't expect her real biological father to all of a sudden pop back into our life. In my mind I fought so hard for justice at the very beginning of my pregnancy. I was hanging my head in shame because people were going, 'Is that the father or isn't it?' "

"So, do I really want to be on a red carpet yet again, entertaining everybody else's world, like, 'We're a happy family' and 'Ooh, Eddie's back in our life?' But I had no choice." She fought back tears as she talked about her memories of being pregnant with Eddie Murphy's daughter: "It brings up all that pain and all that hurt that I went through by myself, pregnant. I had to move to the beach, I had paparazzi following me everywhere, I had people calling me a golddigger, saying that I got pregnant on purpose; it was a horrible time."