AceShowbiz - Pop star Adele felt like a failure when her marriage to ex-husband Simon Konecki ended in 2019.
The "Rolling in the Deep" hitmaker's divorce, which was finalised in 2021, left her feeling embarrassed about the relationship's failure.
"It made me really sad. Then having so many people that I don't know KNOW that I didn't make that work ... it f**king devastated me," she told Rolling Stone.
"I was embarrassed. No one made me feel embarrassed, but you feel like (you) didn't do a good job."
The British superstar noted she didn't feel like she knew herself towards the end of the relationship, which she blames either on entering her 30s or her "Saturn return," the astrological phase when the planet Saturn returns to the same longitude it held at a person's birth. The astrological event is associated with major life changes like, breakups.
"I didn't really know myself," she continued. "I thought I did. I don't know if it was because of my Saturn return or if it was because I was well and truly sort of heading into my thirties, but I just didn't like who I was."
After the split, Adele embarked on a well documented health and fitness regime, which led to a huge weight loss, and getting physical really helped her mentally too.
"If I can transform my strength and my body like this, surely I can do it to my emotions and to my brain and to my inner well-being."
"That was what drove me. It just coincided with all of the emotional work that I was doing with myself as a visual for it, basically," she added.
Meanwhile, Adele, who is now dating American sports agent Rich Paul, has reflected on the fact that she never previously felt totally present in her relationships.
"I think I've never been fully in any of my relationships. I always had this fear from a really young age that you've going to leave me anyway, so I'm going to leave or I'm not going to invest myself in anything," she noted.