AceShowbiz - Shawn Mendes has spoken out about the effect of his explosive argument with Camila Cabello. The "Treat You Better" hitmaker confessed in a new interview that he was "terrified of being evil" after he raised his voice at his girlfriend.
During an appearance on the "Man Enough" podcast on Monday, June 28, the 22-year-old singer spilled on the incident. "I raised my voice at her and she was like, 'I don't like it when you raise your voice. Why did you raise your voice?' And I got so defensive," he recalled. "I was like, 'I wasn't raising my voice at you!' And I did raise my voice at her."
"And I felt her shrink and I felt me grow and I was like, 'Oh god, this is the worst.' I'm so terrified of being evil. I'm so scared to be bad. I don't want to be bad," Shawn continued. He went on to reveal that they "had to get in this massive conversation" about his deep-rooted fear because he didn't want to be perceived negatively. "Maybe there even is bad inside of me and I have to just accept that," he admitted.
"And that other part of me, he's just got to be here and we've just got to work together until eventually he gets worked in all of the trauma and all of the kinks get rubbed out of him and he's OK," Shawn confessed. The "Stitches" crooner then claimed, "But I can't avoid the fact that there's a little bit of darkness inside of me and letting that darkness kind of be present is a horrible feeling."
Shawn credited Camila for comforting him during such dark period. "I made it about my evil and my fear, and she comforted me," he reflected. "And then it took me like 20 minutes of us separately reading our books to be able to come back to her and be like, 'God, that was a whole thing and I'm really sorry.' "
The couple, who sparked dating rumors after they teamed up on their song "Senorita", went public with their relationship in July 2019. The two adopted a dog together in November 2020.
Shawn admitted that the two of them have even discussed their future together. During an interview on "Zach Sang Show" in December, the Canadian singer said his dad already referred to the former Fifth Harmony member as his daughter-in-law.