AceShowbiz - Ariana Grande has learned to love "fearlessly" in the wake of the Manchester Arena terror attack.
The popstar recently marked the first anniversary of the tragic bombing which took place following her concert in Manchester, England in May 2017, with the incident causing 22 deaths and more than 500 injuries.
While Ariana has previously spoken about her devastation over the attack, her mother Joan Grande has now shared that she's noticed another change in her daughter too.
"She loves a bit more fearlessly than she did before," she told U.S. Elle magazine, while Ariana, who recently became engaged to comedian Pete Davidson, added that the event has altered her perspective.
It’s been almost a year since @ArianaGrande fled a UK terrorist attack that claimed 22 lives, injuring 500 more, at the sold-out Manchester show of Ariana’s Dangerous Woman tour. “When I got home from tour, I had really wild dizzy spells, this feeling like I couldn’t breathe,” she tells ELLE during her cover interview. “I would be in a good mood, fine and happy, and they would hit me out of nowhere. I’ve always had anxiety, but it had never been physical before. There were a couple of months straight where I felt so upside down.” She shared the experience with her friend Pharrell Williams. Together they created “Get Well Soon,” the final track on #Sweetener. Link in bio for our full conversation with #ArianaGrande and her mom, @joangrande, on life after the Manchester attack, "loving a bit more fearlessly," and the importance of being an ally. . . ELLE August 2018 credits: editor-in-chief: @ninagarcia creative director: #stephengan photographer: @alexilubomirski stylist: @natasharoyt hair: @thejoshliu makeup: @patrickta
"You hear about these things. You see it on the news, you tweet the hashtag," she said. "It's happened before, and it'll happen again. It makes you sad, you think about it for a little, and then people move on. But experiencing something like that firsthand, you think of everything differently... Everything is different."
“She loves a bit more fearlessly than she did before.”—@joangrande. Link in bio for our full August 2018 cover story with #ArianaGrande and her mom. . . ELLE August 2018 credits: editor-in-chief: @ninagarcia creative director: #stephengan photographer: @alexilubomirski stylist: @natasharoyt hair: @thejoshliu makeup: @patrickta
In addition, Joan spoke about how she was in the audience on the night of the bombing. In spite of the chaos ensuing around her, the business executive was determined to find and be with her youngest child.
A lot of mainstream top 40 types—those who, say, have a certain Reputation—are seemingly reluctant to take a political stance. The fear being, presumably, a loss of fan base and revenue. “That’s wild to me,” Ariana says. She is loud and proud in her anti-Trumpism and has aligned herself with gun reform and Black Lives Matter. The interviewer wonders if she’s gotten any backlash. “Of course!” she says. “There’s a lot of noise when you say anything about anything. But if I’m not going to say it, what’s the fucking point of being here? Not everyone is going to agree with you, but that doesn’t mean I’m just going to shut up and sing my songs. I’m also going to be a human being who cares about other human beings; to be an ally and use my privilege to help educate people.” Link in bio for our full August 2018 cover story with #ArianaGrande. . . ELLE August 2018 credits: editor-in-chief: @ninagarcia creative director: #stephengan photographer: @alexilubomirski stylist: @natasharoyt hair: @thejoshliu makeup: @patrickta
"I didn't know where I was going. I just knew I was going to my daughter. Not to be overly dramatic - I struggle with this every day - but I didn't know what I would find when I got to her. I sympathise with every parent who was waiting for a child. Those minutes when you don't know what's happening... there are no words," she commented.
During the interview, Ariana also explained that she knew she wouldn't be able to perform again until she held the One Love Manchester benefit concert in June 2017. However, the "Break Free" hitmaker still suffered from debilitating anxiety attacks for months after the fundraiser.
"When I got home from tour, I had really wild dizzy spells, this feeling like I couldn't breathe," the 25-year-old said. "There were a couple of months straight where I felt so upside down."