AceShowbiz - Lily Allen opened up about her past relationships and the "red flag behaviors." On her podcast "Miss Me?" with co-host Miquita Oliver, she revealed that her first boyfriend, Lester Lloyd, triggered a pattern in her relationships.

"As soon as I got my first boyfriend, Lester, complete transference of intimacy. Not only did I not want to touch or be cuddled or be kissed by anyone in my family, I couldn't engage in it with them either," Allen shared. "It's incredibly like, red flag, codependent behavior that I just put all of my emotional dependency on one person."

She explained why kissing was an unusual expression of intimacy for her. "When two heterosexual people come together physically - and in animal kingdom they don't kiss, it's just to impregnate the other person," she said.

What about her daughters? "One of them, when I say give me a kiss, she just puts her forehead forward for me to kiss her on the forehead," she said. "And the other one wants full on kisses on the lips. And yeah, I don't have a problem with either. Whatever they want. Whatever they're comfortable with."

Despite her reservations, Allen declared her love for kissing. "Personally I love being kissed, I think it is a wonderful thing. I will say I think its quite perverse. It does feel great though, I mean I love being kissed, I love kissing people," she stated.

The singer, who recently separated from actor David Harbour, has faced significant emotional turmoil following their split.

Harbour's move to using the celebrity dating app Raya, and his subsequent relationship with 27-year-old aspiring model Ellie Fallon, added to Allen's distress. Friends noted that Lily was "devastated" by the breakup and "very upset" after seeing pictures linked to Harbour and Fallon.

Allen's coping mechanism involved checking herself into a trauma center, where she spent weeks focusing on mental health through individual and group therapy.

"I just feel very grateful to have been given the time and the space that I needed. I went into a sort of treatment center for a few weeks, which was great," Allen said. "I did a lot of group therapy and some individual therapy and I just, I needed some time and space away from everything."

However, her journey to healing was far from easy. "The medication that I was on last year sent me f***ing crazy. So I've had to come off of that medication and start a new one," she revealed.

Allen also touched on her role as a mother to daughters Marnie Rose, 12, and Ethel Mary, 13, ensuring they don't bear the burden of her struggles. She said it's not their job to "prop me up," but it's her responsibility to make them "feel safe and secure."

"I just don't think I was able to do that because of the sort of emotional turmoil that I was in at the time," she said. "But I do feel like I am now. I‘m not saying I'm 100% there and I'm not saying that I'm getting it 100% right or ever will but I'm definitely in a stronger place."