AceShowbiz - Angela Simmons had a hard time dealing with the death of her ex-fiance Sutton Tennyson, let alone telling their son Sutton that his father is dead after he got shot and killed in 2018. The reality TV star reveals in a new episode of "Growing Up Hip Hop" how she told her son that his father is gone and she can't hold back her tears.

During a conversation with life coach Chenoa Maxwell, Angela reveals her son's recognition of his dad's car prompted the heartbreaking talk. "I was with my son, and super emotional right, even to talk about it. He was looking out the window and he's like, 'Daddy, white car,' " she emotionally recalls.

"I question him, 'Where do you see him?' or 'Who is Daddy? What does he look like?' I'm asking him. I'm like, 'Do you want to see your dad?' and he's like, 'Yes.' So he comes over and I start showing him videos and pictures and stuff, and he stopped," Angela says in a clip of the Thursday, January 23 episode of the WE tv series. "It's not like he's full conversational yet, so this is what kind of makes it emotional. He was like, 'Is he alive?' "

"He doesn't even say the word 'alive,' so for him to, like ask that is, like, woah. Like, did you really just say, 'Is he alive?' And I was just like, 'No, he's not,' " she tearfully recalls. The 32-year-old bursts into tears as she continues, "This is the first time I'm having to explain it to him, which is, like, super sad, because he's three. How do you explain to a 3-year-old that they're never going to see them again? Other than my own way, which is like, 'He's in Heaven, he's with God.' [I say] all of the great things, then he kind of laid his head in my chest and told me he was sad."

Angela says her son is "never" emotional, and it made it harder for her to see him sad. "He's a happy kid, and that whole day, he was just kind of, like, mopey and sad," she says through tears. "And I told him, 'I got you. You're OK. You're good.' ... It was that conversation, but it was super hard to have that conversation with him."

Angela admits that to this day she's still struggling to accept her ex-fiance's death. "[The fact that I'm still grieving is] definitely one of the biggest things that I'm dealing with," she says.

Angela and Sutton split in 2017. Sutton was found dead in his garage in November 2018 with multiple gunshot wounds. Autopsy results revealed he was shot 13 times.