AceShowbiz - %cBeyonce Knowles% seemingly can't put her husband %cJay-Z%'s past infidelity behind her, even though she has already forgiven him. The 36-year-old singer is said to be "living in constant fear" that her rapper husband would cheat on her again following his infidelity confession in a November interview with T: The New York Times Style Magazine.
Speaking to Life & Style, an insider reveals that "ever since JAY admitted to cheating, Beyonce can't stop thinking about it." The "Empire State of Mind" spitter allegedly "thought once he came clean, she would forgive him, but instead, it's made things worse."
"Beyonce was at home with three children while he was out touring," the insider notes, "and she was living in constant fear that he would cheat again." Beyonce and Jay, who welcomed their twins Rumi and Sir in June, "had a short honeymoon phase where they came together for their twins," says the insider. "But that didn't last. Beyonce can't seem to get past his cheating."
As previously reported, Jay admitted to cheating on his singer wife in his extensive interview to the Times, where he also revealed the "hardest thing" about being unfaithful to his wife of nearly a decade. "The hardest thing is seeing pain on someone's face that you caused, and then have to deal with yourself," he said. "So, you know, most people don't want to do that. You don't want to look inside yourself. And so you walk away."
The 48-year-old rapper also told the Times that music helped him and Beyonce make things work in their rocky marriage. "We were using our art almost like a therapy session," he explained. "And we started making music together." He continued, "And then the music she was making at the time was further along. So her album came out as opposed to the joint album that we were working on."