AceShowbiz - John Stamos has released the long eulogy he delivered at Bob Saget's funeral. Making its way out via The Los Angeles Times on Friday, January 21, the full "raunchy, heartbreaking speech" is full of stories of John's friendship with Bob and how he came to accept the loss of his best.
"My Bob. I'm not ready to accept that he's gone. I'm not going to say goodbye yet," the Jesse Katsopolis depicter began his speech. "I imagine him out there, still on the road, doing what he loves with all his heart and humor."
John joked, "Personally, I hope to die after a beautiful night of lovemaking with my wife, but I'm glad Bob didn't go that way. As I said, I rather he dies after doing what he did best. (Sorry, Kelly.) That's the kind of joke Bob loved."
Describing his longtime friendship with Bob, the "General Hospital" alum said, "Come to think of it, when we were together, we were like an old, married couple: all bickering, no sex." He admitted that they didn't get along at first when they started filming "Full House".
"But life does what it does, and when things came crashing down, the last person on Earth I ever imagined would be my rock became just that," the 58-year-old said of how their relationship evolved. "When I lost my parents, Bob was there for me like no other. He told dirty jokes and talked about himself as he hosted my dad's funeral. He was there through divorces, deaths, despair and dark days. He was there through love, marriage, a child and bright times. He was my lifeline."
He went on remembering his late friend, "Bob loved with everything he had. He taught me to be present with the ones I love. I hope he learned to internalize the love I felt for him."
John then revealed his first reaction after learning of Bob's passing. "When the news broke, I broke. I was shattered and felt worthless to help anyone else," he shared. "But my supportive wife picked me up, threw me in the car and drove to Bob and Kelly's house. That's what Bob would have done if it were the other way around."
He went on recalling, "I slipped into the backyard by myself. His last cigar was sitting in an ashtray by the jacuzzi. It was windy and balmy. I looked up to the sky and said, 'Baby, please give me a sign from up there.' (I called him Baby because that's how he entered his info into my phone years ago.) 'Tell me you're alright. Tell me not to feel bad.' I waited a few minutes. Nothing. Asked again. Silence."
John said he eventually came to terms with Bob's sudden passing as he realized, "Maybe I need to stop looking for Bob in the sky and accept that he's just where he needs to be, peaceful, free, surrounded by the hummingbirds of past souls at rest."
"I've spent days refusing to let him go. But now I'm starting to realize I don't have to. I don't have to say goodbye because he's never leaving my heart. And I will continue to talk to him every day and let him know what he means to me," he continued.
"Bob, I will never, ever have another friend like you. You will always be my best friend. You are my new guardian angel - a guardian angel with the dirtiest mouth and a heart as big and benevolent as forever," he concluded his speech. "I love you, Baby."
Bob was found dead in his hotel room at the Ritz-Carlton Orlando on January 9. He was laid to rest on January 14 at Mount Sinai Memorial Park Cemetery.