AceShowbiz - Lorde has gotten candid about her feelings during the COVID-19 pandemic. Calling 2020 "a real f**king head spinner," the "Royals" hitmaker admitted that she felt "lonely" this year.
"The pandemic has continued to make things difficult, lonely, or dangerous for absolutely everyone in varying degrees," the 24-year-old wrote in a newsletter to fans sent on Tuesday, October 26. "But outside of that, 2021 has been tough in completely unexpected ways."
"Being away from home at a time where the country's struggling to contain the virus, feeling isolated from friends and loved ones there. Looking out at the country I'm in and feeling estranged from so much of what I see, and knowing it feels as estranged from me," the New Zealand native added. "[I'm] questioning what I'm doing and why, all the time, on an unprecedented level."
Elsewhere in the newsletter, Lorde told her fans that she currently lives in New York City. She said she often takes long walks as a way of getting "an interesting cross section of multiple neighbourhoods."
The "Team" songstress then addressed her "decision to step back from social media." She stated, "I was so sure skipping the negatives (compulsive time-wasting, IV drip of dread, satisfying but hollow validation loop) would outweigh missing out on the positives (feeling like part of a community, hearing your sweet words, hitting you back). But I've really, really missed you."
"Normally I'd be doing festivals and shows already, pinging around the world and touching your faces," the two-time Grammy winner pointed out. "So that probably contributes to the loneliness a little bit."
Back in August, Lorde admitted that she felt "crabby" after quitting social media. "I felt like my brain wasn't working very well anymore," she said during an appearance on "The Late Late Show with James Corden". "It was horribly difficult, the hardest thing I've ever done. I was so crabby. I felt so disconnected. But it's how my life is now."