While she ended her previous longtime monogamous relationship to explore her sexuality, filmmaker Caroline Rose Giulani still hopes to 'eventually find a 'monogamish' relationship.'
- Mar 6, 2021
AceShowbiz - Unlike her conservative father, Rudy Giuliani's daughter is a complete liberal, particularly when it comes to how she views relationship and sexuality. Caroline Rose Giulani has gotten candid about her sexual exploration and how it made her become a "better person" in an essay for Vanity Fair.
In the essay, the filmmaker said she previously "was in a long-term, loving, monogamous relationship." However, it was one her "body begged me to end before it progressed to an engagement." Once she was single, she "immediately began to make up for lost time."
Caroline, who "had known for some time that I was at least bisexual," then explored polyamory and started dating a couple. Detailing her experience as a "unicorn," a woman who acts as the third partner for couples looking to have a threesome, she said it "started me on the path to identifying as pansexual, which feels more precise than bisexuality." She explained, "I am attracted to people based on their presence and energy regardless of their biological sex, gender, or gender identity."
"I now understand that my curiosity, open-mindedness, and sense of adventure are three nonnegotiable, defining elements of my identity," she shared. "But it wasn't until I started sleeping with couples that I shed my shame about those qualities, let alone embraced them in all areas of my life."
She continued writing, "Finding the strength to explore these more complicated, passionate aspects of my personality became the key to harnessing my voice and creative spark, which in turn helped me better cope with depression, anxiety, and the lingering cognitive effects of adolescent anorexia."
Having dealt with slut-shaming, Caroline found that "virtual strangers have often felt comfortable confessing burdensome secrets about their sexuality." She added, "I have always valued my ability to hold space for people to share their repressed experiences because I believe it's an essential step in combating the toxic shame our society perpetuates."
Caroline, who directed and wrote 2020's film "Or (Someone) Else", said embracing herself has made her a "better person," adding, "I know now that I am empathetic, radically open-minded, profoundly adventurous, and fiercely committed to telling stories that reduce the stigma surrounding sexuality and mental health - including this one, right now."
But despite her open view on sexuality, Caroline admitted that she still hopes to "eventually find a 'monogamish' relationship, like many of the couples I've dated have."
