The 26-year-old hip-hop singer admits he is in the state where 'average man wouldn't hesitate to blow his f**king brains out' and looks for 'help and guidance.'
- Jul 22, 2015
AceShowbiz - Chris Brown made his fans anxious after he posted a lengthy note on Instagram on Tuesday, July 21, saying that he was in need of "help and guidance." The hip-hop singer, whose house was robbed by masked intruders on July 15, admitted he was tired of someone who ruined his life.
The note came along with a picture of Chris on stage with red screen in the background. The picture gave a sad impression as Chris looked down while covering his eyes with sunglasses. "When u tired of the f**king devil ruining your life and u hear God speak for the first time," he wrote. "No one knows what I deal with on a day to day. The average man wouldn't hesitate to blow his f**king brains out but that's the cowards way out... Most won't understand the genius and beauty in change and learning and the people who have devilish intentions will win in the short term."
The 26-year-old singer admitted that deep inside his heart, he was in need of guidance. "My soul will always be pure of heart. What's on the surface always looks like one big party but inside there is a little boy looking for help and guidance," he added.
"People say 'be a man'. Yeah, that's right but it doesn't take away any pain you really go through," the "Ayo" hitmaker continued, before saying that he wanted to focus on his music career. "I just wanna stay out the way and do music. Most importantly and great father. I don't have any more patience for anything that will cause me to self destruct!!"
A number of fans took to Instagram to give support to the "Loyal" singer. User @linda__badoo commented, "Keep praying God listen." Another user @og.vincent said, "I'll pray for you." Similarly, user @pookadee wrote, "That's right , I sincerely want you to have a peace of mind . Clear thoughts, healthy mind & give all glory to the big man. We love you Chris!"
It was the second time Chris made a confession about his problem on his Instagram account. Back in May, he took to Instagram to repent of his troubled past. At that time, he wrote, "There has been times where I looked in the mirror and hated the person I see. I talk to God a lot now. He's given me so much and I feel like I waste his gifts becuz of my impulsive personality."
