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Adam Lambert recently talked about whom he meant to flip off during his November 22 performance at American Music Awards. "Literally, as I did it, I went, 'Oh God, what am I doing?' " he told MTV. "I was out of body. You know, the finger was to the people that have been criticizing me."

"The finger was to the people who doubt me. The finger was to the people that were about to censor me. The finger was not to fans or people who support me at all, by any means," Adam explained further. "The finger was to Out magazine's editor who wailed into me, people like that." In his last statement, he referred to Aaron Hicklin who accused him of downplaying his sexuality.

In addition to gesturing audience with his middle finger, Adam Lambert also kissed his male keyboardist when closing AMAs over the weekend. "He [the keyboardist] did not know! No - during rehearsal I grabbed him by the hair and kind of just looked at him," Adam said. "He's straight, but not married. He's single. I guess he didn't mind getting kissed in the name of entertainment."

During his interview with Ryan Seacrest meanwhile, Adam Lambert said he doesn't owe apology to anyone. "I'm not a babysitter, I'm a performer," he stated. "I performed, it was late-night TV, I did something that female performers have been doing for years, no different. It's just the fact that I'm me and it's a little different for people. It's really not that big of a deal."

On another interview, this time with New York's Z100 radio station, Adam raved, "I wasn't nervous. I had so much adrenaline, it did get the best of me in moments, and then in other moments, it fired me up. My favorite thing about performing is the impromptu aspect of it. If you rehearse every step and every move, it's boring. It's not raw. When you see a performer up there who just goes with it, it's more interesting."