April 29, 2010 03:39:22 GMT
Admitting that he has caused Sandra Bullock pain and devastation, Jesse James says, 'It would be selfish to not let her go.'
Sandra Bullock's estranged husband Jesse James has been left with a "huge hole in his heart" after his wife filed for divorce - but insists it would be "selfish not to let her go". The Oscar-winning actress walked out on James last month after tattooed model Michelle McGee went public with claims of an 11-month affair with the TV mechanic.
Several other women also came forward with allegations of affairs with James, prompting the disgraced star to issue a public apology to his wife and check into rehab to deal with his personal issues. Bullock has now confirmed the marriage is definitely over, telling People magazine she has filed legal papers to end the union.
The actress also revealed to People that the couple adopted a baby boy from New Orleans, Louisiana shortly before news of the scandal broke. James, who has three children from previous relationships, has revealed his wife will now continue the adoption on her own, and he won't be a part of little Louis' life - and he is devastated to miss out on the chance to raise a baby with Bullock.
He tells People magazine, "My whole life has been full of hard decisions. The decision to let my wife end our marriage, and continue the adoption of Louis on her own, has been the hardest. The love I have for Louis cannot be put to words. Not having him around to love and to hold has left a huge hole in my heart."
"Sandy is the love of my life, but considering the pain and devastation I have caused her, it would be selfish to not let her go." James also blames his marriage breakdown on an "addiction" - fueling rumors he was treated for sex addiction during his recent stay in rehab. He adds, "Right now it is time for me to beat this addiction that has taken two of the things I love the most in life."
"I know in my heart that I can be the best father possible to my four children, and the mate Sandy deserves, and realize that this is an incredible mountain to climb. But I believe that the steps I have taken in the last 30 days are the foundation for making this happen. The lifelong commitment I am making is what being a real husband and father is all about."
In another new news, Sandra Bullock was deeply "shocked" when she saw a photograph of her estranged husband Jesse James posing as a Nazi - calling the picture "stupid" and "ignorant". "The Blind Side" star walked out on James last month following allegations he cheated on her with a string of women.
James was further disgraced by the publication of a controversial picture which showed him posing in a military hat and giving a Nazi salute. He was also seen holding two fingers up to his top lip in a reference to Nazi leader Adolf Hitler's moustache.
And Bullock admits she was furious when she saw the snap. She tells People magazine, "The photo shocked me and made me sad. This is not the man I married. This was stupid, this was ignorant. Racism, anti-Semitism, sexism, homophobia, anything Nazi and a boatload of other things have no place in my life. And the man I married felt the same."