On a thoughtful note he posted on Instagram, the 26-year-old rapper wrote, 'There has been times where I looked in the mirror and hated the person I see.'
- May 29, 2015
AceShowbiz - After his involvement in a number of feuds, legal trouble, threats, and other bad stuff, Chris Brown apparently repented of his troubled behaviors. On Thursday, May 28, Chris posted a photo with a remorseful caption.
The photo showed Chris lounging on a white-and-black striped sofa by the sea with a peaceful view of open air and blue sky in the background. He wrote a lengthy note in the caption. "I'm Konfuzed, I always thought I knew the concept of love. Fame and Money can get in the way of that," he began the caption as he addressed himself as Konfuze.
The 26-year-old R&B star then addressed the problems which he used to deal with, "Most of my issues always deal with love and me being in my feelings. Not to mention me being a dog sometimes." He said that he got the consequences from his actions, which he took based on emotional decision. "I can't speak for everyone but I can say that my actions contributed a lot to my karma. Being jealous and angry and controlling," he continued.
Being a bad boy in the past made it difficult for him to forgive himself but he admitted that he got close to God recently. He wrote, "There has been times where I looked in the mirror and hated the person I see. I talk to God a lot now. He's given me so much and I feel like I waste his gifts becuz of my impulsive personality."
The rapper was also aware that as a public figure, his actions affected other people. "The world is full of negativity and I feel I play a part in it becuz of the choices I've made or mistakes. I tend to accept the negative or the riff raff becuz I know what it's like to be a young black 'n***a' in America. I always see the good in people even when they don't see it. I love others more than myself at times. Everything u see on the surface does not reflect what's inside," he added.
Chris concluded his note by saying that he repented of his bad behaviors and mistakes. "This is my white flag. I surrender to life and all its blessings. I refuse to be petty and attention seeking. To know me is to love me. Good Bad UGLY! Sincerely, Konfuzed," so he wrote.
Earlier this month, the "New Flame" singer apologized to Tyson Beckford for the threat he made on Twitter. He was also reported feuding with Royalty's mother Nia Guzman over child support. It appears that Chris has been exhausted by the dramas in his life and wants to start a peaceful life.
