In her blog post, the former child star and the mother of two shares what she will tell her children on why she doesn't drink, 'I never want to lose myself and not be able to find you.'
- Sep 13, 2014
AceShowbiz - Former child actress Alisan Porter has revealed that she is a recovering alcoholic. In a blog post written on Thursday, September 11, the "Curly Sue" star and a mother of two details her journey to sobriety and what motivates her to stay away from alcoholic drinks.
"Hi, I'm Ali, and I'm an alcoholic," she starts. "I was living in NYC when I realized I needed to get sober. I was miserable and overwhelmed with life. I was heartbroken and realizing that what had always worked for me in the past was NOT working at all. Not even a little bit. I felt trapped, scared, and sad and I was ready to really go for broke or get better. So, I did what every good user does and I prayed to a god I had never believed in... and then called my mom. Days later I was off to treatment, just like that."
Porter then "went to meetings, worked the steps, got a sponsor, found a god of my own understanding, prayed, meditated and basically grew up" for the next four years. She got married and gave birth to two kids and felt that her life got much better.
Porter says that life is not always easy, but she won't drink again because if she does, she probably won't "hear the baby crying until someone has to wake me up. I go puke. I wake up in a daze with the people I love around me shaking their heads. I feel like death and I can't wait to do it all again tomorrow. My kids lose their mother and, worse, I lose them."
Porter now can proudly say that she has been sober since October 28, 2007. "I'm sure that someday my kids will ask me why I don't drink and my answer will be simple: 'I never want to lose myself and not be able to find you,' " she concludes.
